WHAT A WAY TO DIE!

Christa. 23. London. B-movies. Records. Boobs. Wolf t-shirts.
Jeremy Deller at the Hayward.

Jeremy Deller at the Hayward.

Jeremy Deller, The History of the World, 1997

Jeremy Deller, The History of the World, 1997

Now I am quietly waiting for
the catastrophe of my personality
to seem beautiful again,
and interesting, and modern.

The country is grey and
brown and white in trees,
snows and skies of laughter
always diminishing, less funny
not just darker, not just grey.

It may be the coldest day of
the year, what does he think of
that? I mean, what do I? And if I do,
perhaps I am myself again.

—Frank O’Hara, Mayakovsky (excert)

I’ve got that point again where I’m just getting wasted all the time, trying not just to let go, but to drown everything else out.

This.

This.